Punished #5

 
 
Title: Punished
Author: Vanessa Steel
Format: Paperback
Page:336 Pages
Publisher: Harper Collins Publisher
ISBN: 9780007256815
 
A Mother's Cruelty. a Daughter's Survival. a Secret That Couldn't be Told. 

 
'Punished' is the inspiring true story of an unusual little girl, Vanessa, whose childhood was devastated by torture and abuse at the hands of her sadistic mother. Vanessa was nearly destroyed until she discovered a secret that ultimately saved her life. From the age of 3, Vanessa lived in daily terror of her mother's unpredictable rage. If she was 'naughty', her mother would lash out at her - with beatings, torture, starvation and making Vanessa sleep in their garden's pigsty, tied up like an animal. Her mother said her punishments were God's revenge on her for being the devil's child. Her father lived in denial of her suffering.
 
When she was 6 years old, Vanessa's grandfather began to sexually abuse her - to her despair, aided and abetted by both her mother and grandmother. At eight years old, she then discovered that the 'mother' who hated her so much had adopted her as a baby and would never love her as her own. At the most horrific times of Vanessa's abuse, she nearly lost all hope that she would escape her prison, until mysterious things started to happen to her that allowed her to fight back. This is the story of how Vanessa survived a childhood that nearly destroyed her and how her secret led her out of the horrors of her past.
 
 
 
My library have a corner for a books that have some issues with it and only staff that allowed to read that, e.g. LGBT book. Since my library will officially open after midterm break which is the beginning of October, I need to do some clearing and turn out I found this book while tidying that area.  
 
This will be my first time reading such a harrowing but inspiring true story of a little girl who survived a terrifying childhood that nearly destroyed her. Vanessa growing up with a lot of questions that plagued her throughout life. What had her done to make her mom hate Vanessa so much that she did so many cruel things to Vanessa. Did her mother remember all the times she almost killed Vanessa? Why her mother allow her to be a victim of terrible abuse? What crime had she committed?Why had she punished Vanessa endlessly and thoroughly and with spite and cruelty from the day she was born? 

Honestly..I'm not finishing this book. I can't stand all the torment that she have been through. This book was hard for me to read because of the graphic details. Ever since she was 3 years old her mother will punished her and it getting worst when her grandfather involved into it too. She's been grooming to become her grandfather sexual gratification and when she reach at 8 years old he raped her.
 
'Grandpa led me down the steps into the garage. 
"I have got a new game today,"he said,as he shut the door behind us. "You'll like it,it's really fun."But I knew we weren't playing...and the woman who should have been protecting me from this was calmly filing her nails in the garage doorway.'
 
From what i have read, the only love that her mother have is the love for her grandfather. I believed that her mother also being brought up same situation like her. The only thing that she understand is if you want someone to love you, you have to follow whatever that you being told to do. I will have to put down the book and take a deep breath every time she being torture. Try to gather my strength to finish this book, unfortunately I failed to do that. I think this book make me curse a lot.πŸ˜… I really hate it. How come you do that to the innocent little child. Thus I can't make it to the end, I only can write this far so no stars for this postπŸ˜”

-xoxo-
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 

 

DIY labels sticker

DIY labels sticker ৷ Pernah tak nampak kat jar yang dah siap tulis "Flour" atau "sugar" Ha today AD nak tunjukkan caranmudah macam mana nak buat sticker untuk jar.


  1.  Caranya senang je, anda senaraikan balang yang anda ada.
  2. Pilih jenis fonts
  3. Print
  4. Gunting dan tampalkan diatas clear masking tape
  5. Basahkan sedikit dengan air untuk menghilangkan background kertas (kita nak tulisan sahaja)
  6. Dan tampal ke atas jar.



Ha senang kan nak buat. Selamat mencuba!

PRELOVED GIVEWAY BY RAYDAH

 

Hye guys! in the mood to join segment again.

I have been following Ray at IG for quite some time ago. From only a few thousand followers of her until now 11k followers. Quite impressive!!!! I love to read her blog because of the way she expose herself, the selection of words that she pick and transform it into a nice piece of post. The theme of her blog so peaceful, and the tone of colors that she choose fit perfectly into her blog..now that i think back its like a unicorn colors!OMG! it is true?hahahha..well only her know the answer. 


what makes you come back to my blog from time to time and the things you look forward to reading on my blog. 

Well honestly..I have been through teenage phase. All the ups and downs..visiting her blog sometimes reminds me how far have I been..how strong I am now..and her blog also inspire me bout journey. Travel..that makes me keen to come back to visit her blog from time to time and as a blogger friend I also want to know her life..be there to support her. that's what friend do. Although we just friend in virtual world.  

I never read she post about recipe that she cook,,hahah perhaps she can do a post about recipe..(i know its not her blog niche) but its kinda fun when thinking about it..hahaha..anyway..all the best sis.

Rendang mak koi, bukan mak aok

 


Bahan A (kisar)

  • serai ( 2batang)
  • bawang kecil (5 ulas)
  • bawang besar (1 biji)
  • bawang putih (4 ulas)
  • halia (3 inci) Bahan B
  • ayam 1 ekor
  • cili boh ( 3 sudu)
  • kerisik ( 2 sudu)
  • santan kotak (250ml)
  • sedikit air
  • asam keping (3 keping)
  • sedikit kunyit serbuk ( optional) Cara-caranya: 🐀Tuang sedikit minyak, dan masukkan bahan kisar ke dalam kuali. 🐀Masukkan cili boh dan ayam dahulu, renehkan sebentar kemudian masukkan sedikit serbuk kunyit. 🐀Setelah menggelegak masukkan santan kotak, sedikit air dan asam keping. 🐀renehkan lagi dalam api yang kecil,masukkan bahan perasa(garam dan gula)serta kerisik dan teruskan mereneh sehingga betul betul masak
Untuk lebih faham caranya boleh view video AD..Selamat mencuba!



Hogoh de Coco@ TEMERLOH

Hogoh de Coco@ TEMERLOH 𐌠  Ada orang Pahang tak kat sini?sep sket! yeah AD orang pahang, lagi tepat di Temerloh..yea ah koi orang temerloh, bandar ikan patin, aok orang mane? ececehh..keluar dah lograt pahang. Arini AD nak share sket minuman air kelapa yang best selain coconut shake..haa jangan igt melaka je famous dengan air kelapa, pahang pon ada juga tau. Hogoh de coco nama diberi..tak tanya pula maksud nama macam tu tapi kalau ikut lograt pahang, hogoh tu lebih kurang macam goncangkan, jadi mungkin maksudnya goncangkan kelapa?


Hogoh de coco ni ada banyak cawangan. Ada di paya pulai, ada juga di kuantan. AD pergi di temerloh ni berhadapan dengan plaza temerloh.  Untuk lokasi yang lebih tepat disini:

Jalan Dato' Abu Samah, Taman Kenangan, 28000 Temerloh, Pahang


Dibuka mulai jam 10 pagi tetapi hanya drive thru sahaja, tak boleh lepak. Berbagai menu boleh dicuba tapi bergantung pada avaibility ketika itu. Masa AD pergi ramai orang, banyak flovor yang dah habis..jadi terpaksa la ambik apa yang ada sahaja.Semasa beratur, penjarakkan social jgn dilupakan tau, walaupun orang lain endah tak endah je, tapi AD still nak jarakkan diri daripada mereka. Mencegah kan lebih baik daripada merawat.




Cantik bukan hiasan dalaman, berkonsepkan loft (kalau tak silap la πŸ˜†) Sebenarnya ruangkan kedai ni amat terhad, hanya satu kerusi menunggu di luar dan ruangan kerja dibelakang. Muat la untuk 3 orang pada satu satu masa. Mungkin disebabkan itu ianya dijadikan drive thru section, tetapi jika anda masih berdegil dan mahukan ruang untuk minum, di cadangkan untuk minum di Hogoh de Coco paya pulai.



Overall AD bagi:

Harga: πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ’— over πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ’—
Rasa:πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ’— over πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ’—
Service:πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ’—over πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ’—


Sausage roll for kids

Sausage roll for kids ୲ Hye peeps! Today I want to share easy and quick menu for kids. Estimate time around 10 to 15 minutes to finish it.

Prep time: 10 minutes    Cook time: 5 minutes

Ingredients:

Bread 
Cheese
Sausage
Egg - 1
Bread crumbs 

  • Take 1 slice of bread and rolled it until it become really thin. (You may cut the crust if your child don't like it)
  • after that put cheese and sausage
  • Then roll it and cut into 4 pieces 
  • dip it into egg and then dip it again into bread crumbs
  • lastly cook it around 5 minutes.

easy and fun recipe to try. πŸ˜‰

Clip mask extender

Clip mask extender πŒ  Since the new norm mewajibkan kita untuk memakai mask ketika berada di luar rumah, and kita para wanita especially yang bertudung mengalami kesukaran untuk memakai mask. Namun tiada lagi masalah tersebut dengan menggunakan mask extender. Tidak dinafikan berbagai jenis mask extender boleh dibeli mengikut citarasa anda semua. Hari ini, AD nak cerita mask extender yang AD gunakan. Extender ni AD beli dengan harga RM5 untuk 3pcs. Kalau nak beli satu pon boleh. Satu harganya RM2. Alang-alang beli so AD beli 3 terus la..boleh letak dalam kereta sekali just incase kalau hilang dah ade spare dalam kereta.



Macam macam design ada. Cara nak pakai pon senang. Sangkut je tali mask tu kat extender tuh..so kaum hawa xyah la takot tudung xjadi ke,tudung penyet ke..ada extender mask ni semua masalah hilang. Boleh rujuk gambar di bawah cara pemakaian die yea. Chummy craft juga menjual  berbagai barang craft. Hot stuff adalah printed bantal.Sesuai untuk dijadikan hadiah. 



ingin tahu lebih lanjut dan melihat barangan yang dijual, anda boleh klik link ini https://shopee.com.my/suegeesuzie 

Mystery box # 1



Mystery box I got this box from kak sha. Eh! how!why? it's book swapping..wanna know more bout it? you can read it HERE. Kak Sha suka membaca, antara bahan bacaan beliau psychical book and ebooks. Tengok sajalah reading goals beliau di goodreads, rasanya AD masih jauh lagi..tak mampu nak habis baca beratus buku dalam masa setahun..hahaha. 



Tadaaaa!!! tak sangka tau dapat mystery box ni dengan cepat..since AD bagi alamat company, tengah keje dapat call dari admission inform ada parcel sampai..Wahh excited, terus pi ambik..dengan pantas..hehe..So ni la rupa parcel tu selepas dibuka lapisan pertama..



Serius la tak sangka dapat banyak barang macam ni..sebab dalam mindset just nak buku je..tetibe dapat barang sampingan sekali..Thanks tau kak sha.😻 Antara items yang kak sha bagi adalah

⭐️Tudung , tak pakai lagi..tapi material die best..ringan je..
⭐️Buku..siap dapat buku extra lagi..tau tau je genre yang AD suka..Horror and mystery
⭐️ Ubat gg travel..suka! kecik senang nak bawak, campak je dalam beg.
⭐️sticky note! Hehehe, meriah la bilik AD dengan sticky note, boleh letak note sambil buat review buku
⭐️Gula gula! Bende pertama sekali habis bila dapat parcel ni
⭐️perfume! wah suka sangat..AD letak kat ofis, dah la AD sejenis OCD tak suka bau peluh, then after balik daripada early years department ( tadika) mmg spray perfume, sbb kekadang body odour bebudak lekat kat baju AD. Lagi suka bile dapat perfume ni.


Terima kasih sekali lagi..jika ada yang berminat untuk book swap..sila email atau tinggalkan jejak anda di ruangan komen..


ASEC First aid training





ASEC First aid training ⎸Have you ever experienced an emergency situation and you have no clue at all how to handle it.What would you do? I always think what can I personally offer to those who are in need but the major problem is I don't know and I don't have any knowledge.  If you ask any individual who has taken a first aid training program if it was worth it and their answer will be "Yes!" Having some basic aid knowledge is essential. Lucky I managed to join First Aid Training that is provided by my company. For this time, my company collaborated with ASEC( academy of safety and emergency care)

It took 2 days to finish this course and about 20 persons who participate together with me. Having first aid knowledge does more than help save life. First thing that I learn is giving appropriate first aid immediately can help to reduce a person's recovery time and make the difference between the victim having a temporary or permanent disability. I like the way they using simple acronyms to help you recall the steps you need to take, for example DR.CAB and within a few minutes they force you to remember it and believe me, once you remember, it will stick in your head forever.The tutors will try their best to make sure you confident and comfortable and therefore more effective and in control when you need to be. 



They provide each of us with a book as a guideline. It's in dual language, malay and english.

Well not all injuries require a trip to hospital such as a small cut to your finger but it doesn't mean that it not cause pain and suffering to the victim. By knowing how to act, even just by employing simple techniques such as applying an ice pack correctly you will help to relieve their discomfort. I remembered when we been discussing about burn and scald topic. They telling us the don't and do stuff. There are a lot of remedies how to deal with scald such as pour soy sauce, put toothpaste and it's kinda funny when the instructor said

 " nak tanya sikit, kne letak colgate je ke?kalau letak darlie tak boleh ke?" Sengal!πŸ€ͺ

I have experienced with scald, I think that time probably around 9 years old i got 2nd degree burn at my left wrist, mom not around my sister calling my neighbour for help and guess what, they literally practice all the remedies before sending me to clinic. Burn and scald is my favourite topic during the training. The spontaneous action from the instructor and all that kind stupid remedies makes me laugh harderπŸ˜‚

                                                            The awesome instructors



                                                              Pardon my Parkinson hand. πŸ˜† 


Personally I think first aid training gives you tools to prevent the situation from becoming worse. Being able to do basic care and stabilise a victim until medical team arrives really help the victim and it creates the confidence to care. Definitely a worth course to take, gain knowledge and help others. 

~until then XOXO~~






Give a book,get a book

Give a book, get a book  It all begin when I'm blog walking to  Ika's blog and kinda interested with one of her post regarding the book exchange. You give a book and you get a book. How cool is that! 

Book swapping or book exchange is the practice of a swap of books between one person and another.

 

Official community banner

I have been experience in taking part once. You can read my post HERE. By the time it was organized by my school. For those who recently follow my blog, I'm working in international school. So we kinda support things like this.Encourage them to read more and I'm thinking why not we try to promote reading through this kind of campaign using blog as a platform.

Exchange your used books for new read. It can help you get a shot at better learning. Personally for me, it is a good practice, we can save environment. It makes me sad when seeing people throwing stuff that still in a good condition. Not only books, like surgical mask. If we do basic calculating here, if you throw minimum 2 pieces for a day, a week you waste 14 pieces of mask that for one person how bout the rest of your family?That's why I'm using cloth mask as alternative to saving mother earth. We can save earth and at same time we can save money too.

 


Okay the pictures shown that my box that i already sent it to kak sha ( You can read about it HERE) and Ika.(you can read it HERE)They sharing same theme but little bit different design. Honestly, I love to decorate stuff, making surprise to others,especially surprise party. This time I choose Zombie theme. Let me tell you the important thing that/ THE ONLY RULE you must put when sending the box is BOOK/S. Meanwhile the extra stuff that you want to give depends on your generosity. 

Remember the title, Give a book,get a book. Once you give a book you definitely get a book for return. It not necessarily english book, could be malay book. Depends on your agreement between a partner that you want to do a book exchange. So like me, I want to give away my malay books, so I snap picture and sent it to my exchange partner. She will choose what book that she like from my collections of books. Then she will do the same things to me. She will snap a picture or can give the available title that she wants to let go then I will choose if any of the books that she have I'm interested with. Easy right.

So if you interested to do book swap with me, do DM me at IG https://www.instagram.com/anakdenesor/, or email me at nurul_inc@yahoo.com

 







Resepi Lempeng 3 bahan orang bujang

 Hye guys! πŸ₯°
Today AD nak share satu resepi yg simple dan masa untuk preparation pon xsmpai la 5 minit..seriously senang dan cepat! Apakah itu? Lempeng 3 bahan orang bujang diberi nama..eceyyyy
Bahan-bahan
  • tepung gandum 1 cawan
  • air 1 cawan
  • telur 1 biji
Arahan
Sila gunakan cawan yang sama untuk menyukat. Satukan tepung gandum, air dan telur dalam blender then blender kesemuanya..biar sebati tau, blend smpai xde ketulan..supaya masa nak buat lempeng nnti smooth je semua.

Panaskan kuali anda, AD tak letak minyak pon di kuali. Setelah kuali panas tuangkan satu senduk adunan tadi dan tunggu sehingga masak angkat dan gulungkan selepas sedikit sejuk.πŸ˜ƒ Sesuai dimakan sewaktu sarapan dan di waktu petang. Dicicah dengan sambal sardin atau sambal ikan bilis. Selamat mencuba!



inside scoop


Location:

 23-G Jalan Anggerik Vanilla, BF31/BF, Kota Kemuning, 40460 Shah Alam, Selangor


AD berkesempatan untuk membasahkan tekak di Inside Scoop cawangan kota kemuning. This is my first time, and the interior amat berbeza dengan inside scoop cawangan lain yang AD pernah pergi. Cantik! Actually tak plan pon nak pergi sini cuma tetibe teringin nak makan ice cream kan..tetiber je. Untuk mencari kedai ni tak susah sangat, cuma nak ke kota kemuning tu kedalam sikit jalan nya, dan AD tak suka traffic di kota kemuning, dengan roundabout lagi. Rimas.

see ramai yang dah beratur

How to order


Anda perlu beratur, dan pergi ke kaunter untuk order. For ice cream, ada beraneka pilihan then boleh pilih berapa scoop yang anda mahu. Harga pula bergantung pada pilihan scoop anda tadi. 

Basically anda perlu beratur, pilih berapa scoop anda mahu dan bgtau juga perisa apa anda mahu.
Then untuk waffle pula, anda boleh pilih waffle apa yang anda mahukan, pilihan jem (peanut,chocolate, strawberry, etc) then pilih ice cream apa yang anda mahu. Selepas pesanan diambil anda akan diberikan nombor dan boleh letakkan nombor tu di seat pilihan anda dan mereka akan hantarkan ke seat anda.



Interior kat sini cantik, actually kne bukak kasut/seliper tau sebelum duduk tapi untuk gambar ni AD pakai kasut sekejap then cabut balik..heheh gegeh nau. Hot spot tau buaiyan ni..ramai yang duduk sini tapi kebetulan time tu ada satu lagi seat kosong so AD pon apa lagi cepat cepat la duduk.


Untuk ice cream AD order chocolate. Rasa dia sama macam ferrero rocher. Sedap! dapat rasa kacang die, terbaik la. Lupa pula nak snap gambar terus makan..hehehe.. AD dapat kad diskaun untuk next time visit, kisahnya air minuman AD tak sampai, diaorg lupa nak hantar so nak jaga hati customer diaorg bagi kat diskaun RM5 untuk next visit. Okay la at least depa admit kesalahan depa.

Rating!
Interior ⭐️ ⭐️⭐️⭐️
Food⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️
Satisfaction ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️
Price⭐️⭐️⭐️
Repeat again? YES!

Fangs a Lot: Final Notes from a Totally Lame Vampire #4



Title: Fangs a Lot: Final notes from a totally lame vampire
Author: Tim Collin
ISBN 9781481421348  
Synopsis
Nigel Mullet (vampire, diarist, not-so-heroic hero) puts his leadership and romantic skills to the test in this fun, funny, and not-at-all-lame conclusion to the Totally Lame Vampire series.

Nigel Mullet finds himself in charge of a vampire coven on a remote Scottish island. As if trying to finish his vampire history homework and impress a vamp girl called Lenora wasn’t enough, Nigel has to spend his time resolving petty disputes.

When a new vampire named Victor joins the coven, Nigel is happy to let him take over. But this newcomer soon proves himself to be a brutal and merciless leader. The hapless Nigel is cajoled into becoming the head of the resistance movement, but will he triumph over his enemy? And perhaps more importantly…will he get the girl? 

My Review 
I like the leadership that Nigel shows while handling conflict in the coven. He somehow think out of the box when he need to handle one unique case which is one of the coven member, seth being accused cannot be a vampire. He been doused with holy water, and being crucified with tiny silver Jesus he didn't even flinch. Nigel solves the problem when he  went to his sister's room and tore down two of her posters (fluffy kitten and KatyPerry) He ripped out the cat's head and stuck it over the image of katy perry.Turns out that Seth scared of that picture and he eventually was transformed at a time when everyone worshiped gods with animal heads.

However despite of the cleverness that he shows , no one appreciate him. That's makes him just  want ordinary life and without doubt he gave the throne to newcomers Victor and Svetlana when they come and reclaim their throne. He think that with the retirement from the throne could make his life more easier, turns out Victor and Svetlana planning something more than the throne only. (This part you should read itπŸ˜‹)

For me it is hilarious book. suitable for primary kids key stage 2. I'm enjoying it so much overall ⭐️⭐️ ⭐️ over ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ 

How to be single #3

  
Title:How to be single 
Author: Liz Tuccillo
Paperback
ISBN: 9781416534129

 
It's the most annoying question and they just can't help asking you:
Why are you single?

Synopsis
On a brisk October morning in New York, Julie Jenson, a single thirty-eight-year-old book publicist, gets a hysterical phone call from her friend Georgia. Reeling from her husband's announcement that he is leaving her for a samba teacher, Georgia convinces a reluctant Julie to organize a fun girls' night out with all of their single friends to remind her why it is so much fun not to be tied down. But the night becomes a wake-up call for Julie because none of her friends seem to be having much fun. 

Alice, a former legal aid attorney has recently quit her job to start dating for a living; Serena, who is so busy becoming a fully realized person that she can't find time to look for a mate; and Ruby, a curvy and compassionate woman, has been mourning the death of her cat for months.

Fed up being single in Manhattan, Julie sets off to find out how women around the world deal with this dreaded phenomenon. From Paris to Rio to Sydney, Bali, Beijing, Mumbai, and Reykjavik, Julie falls in love, gets her heart broken, sees the world, and learns more than she ever dreamed possible. Written in Liz Tuccillo's pitch-perfect, hilarious, and relatable voice, How to Be Single is the ultimate novel for the adventurer in us all


 My Review
 
 I was expecting something different..maybe inspiring, about forging your own path and not relying on relationships to bring you joy. It could have been that. Or it could have been funny. It could have been romantic. It could have been smart. It could have been fun. It could have been educational. Unfortunately it was full of clichΓ©s and stereotype. Some of the story was offensive.The Chinese girl who laughs and laughs? The Indians who "bobble" their heads? The strong Nordic women? i really feels insulted when they talking about Muslim. As if we as a Muslim, think education is not important..i don't know how she could write something like that.

What I loved about this book, and what made me laugh over and over, is the reminder of how nutty we get at a certain age when we haven't married. I do know that married folk have some crisis identity in their life. What if my kids do not need me anymore? What to do if my kids going to collage? But I'm single, so I can't relate to any of that. What I DO relate to is a group of somewhat maniacal women who have been single adults for somewhere around 20 years, and are now faced with the very real possibility that this is it, no prince charming is coming for them.

 Second the idea of being single forever is rolling around in our heads. Maybe we're fine addressing this directly and openly or maybe not. Either way it's there and I believe we will find the true of ourselves.


Overall⭐⭐⭐ over ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
 

wordless wednesday #5


International School open yesterday..hopefully can survived for 37ish more weeks!

7 stages of grief.



 "But every time you hurt me, the less that I cry. And every time you leave me, the quicker these tears dry. And every time you walk out, the less I love you. Baby, we don't stand a chance, it's sad but it's true."

7 stages of grief ⎸ Fall in love with someone is the best feelings ever but to deal with the grief losing someone that you love is never been easy. Same goes with the death of a loved one, job loss,losing a close friend, all these can leave you brokenhearted which make you feel the world will never be the same again. There are 7 stages of grief based on modified Kubler Ross model. Honestly, i have been go through all these phases. Its hard, you will think that you will die if you live without the loved one, but hey! look at you now, still alive and shit! I won't say that it would be easy but what I'm trying to say is i will always be here to support you..we're together fighting all this shit okay prettyπŸ˜ƒ

    1.SHOCK
    Initial paralysis at hearing the bad news.  Of course you will be shock, it's still new to you..you will feels like wanna throw up,dizzy, all the information can't be processes. The feelings of betrayed that you can't accept it. feels like your heart being crushes again and again. The more you love that person, more pain you will feel.


             Roses are dead,Violets are dying, Outside I’m smiling, Inside I’m crying

    2. DENIAL 
    Trying to avoid inevitable. You will still thinking that it just a dream.You will prefer to sleep the whole day to avoid facing the truth. Hoping that when you wake up all this bad dream will be over. "Comeback i still need you"

    3.ANGER
    Frustrated outpouring of bottled-up emotion. You will think what have you done, what's wrong with you that you deserved this kind of relationship. The "Why" always be linger in you thoughts. You feels betrayed, feels angry because that person do that to you. Sometimes you will angry with yourself to fall in love with that stupid person. All small little things, such as the behavior that supposed to be a early hint to you, in this time you will start to realize it.

    4.BARGAINING
    Seeking in vain for a way out. When you still in love, somehow you still have hope. Hoping that your ex will get back to you. You would call him/her every day just to get back your love. You will sent a tons of text saying how much he/she mean to you. You would even begging get rid of your ego.

    5.DEPRESSION
    Final realization of the inevitable.
    A long period of sadness may overtake you. You may realize the true magnitude of your loss and it will sadden you. you may isolate on purpose, reflect on things you did with your loss one and focus on memories of the past.

    6.TESTING
    Seeking realistic solution.
    As you start to adjust to life with your loss, your life become a little calmer and more organized. You become more functional and your mind starts working again. You will find yourself seeking realistic solution to problem posed.


    7.ACCEPTANCE
    Finally finding the way forward.
    In the last stage you learn to accept and deal with the reality of your situation. Acceptance does not necessarily  mean happiness but you will find a way forward.